Thursday, 22 December 2011


So, rejection. One of the most important things to know about and experience in this industry. Rejections are funny things. You enter a room ready and prepared as best you can be for an audition. You either enjoy it or loath it and then you come out of the room analysing how it went.If you feel it went dreadfully, you usually cut your losses and don’t expect to hear anything.
If you feel it went well, however, the story is much different, sometimes even worse. Even though the best way to deal with auditioning is to just do your best and then forget about it, it is still hard to not want to hear. You’ve come out of the audition, you’ve enjoyed it, you feel you got on with the director and (although you really don’t want to admit it) you feel you were better than the rest. You would hire you if you were them. 
Then, that dreadful day arrives that they said they would contact you and you spend the whole day constantly refreshing your email until you finally receive the one you were waiting for. 
You open it, visualising what it would say and then you read, “I’m really sorry, but on this occasion…” and, if you are lucky, “If you would like fuller feedback on the audition do feel free to get in touch.”
I remember my first rejection. I was about eleven years old and had just had my first ever screen test for the prequel they were making of the Black Stallion. The person on the phone just said that they had decided they were going to go with an all-American cast. I was devastated. I really thought I would have wowed them. I had been told I was so good and then I didn’t even get the job. 
Once rejected, the analysing starts again. You thought it went so well. Who could it that got it? Your ego is slightly deflated and your judgement questioned. Your supposed to be a trained actor, ready to analyse your performance and give yourself constructed criticism to get better. You don’t know whether you care or not. Maybe you built the job up too much in your head. The fact is you will care. You wouldn’t have gone for the job if you didn’t want it to some degree.
BUT! As my friend Julie Hartley, a South African actress, said on the phone after my first rejection,  I would have to get used to it. Take the experience and move on. My parents have also said this all the way through my life. I have learnt there will probably be a more rejections than jobs. Mr. Gideon Emery told me, you can’t dwell on it. Give yourself a day and move on. There could be 101 reasons why someone else got the job. If they don’t give you reason don’t stress about it too much. 
I have learnt through my career that every audition is an experience. It will teach me something new every time and I am grateful for that. As an actor, I welcome rejection as much as a job. Of course I would prefer to work, but it is all a learning curve. I look forward to a long career full of experiences!

Thursday, 15 December 2011


Today, I decided to escape to a quant little cafe, not too far away, to just sit and write - it has been blissful! I have written several short films and stories just to keep the juices flowing. It has been awesome trying to plan how I would shoot them. 
The most amazing thing about writing is that it keeps me creative everyday. And it also keeps me working =]

Saturday, 10 December 2011


So, the other day, I met with a remarkable young woman by the name of Anna-Maria Despres. It was brilliant to be able to talk with someone who had such passion for filmmaking and also offered such a brilliant new perspective and new opinions. We have met a few times since and have talked over past projects we have done and I feel we will really work well together on projects in the future.